朋友

这 些 年 一 个 人

风 也 过 雨 也 走

有 过 泪 有 过 错

还 记 得 坚 持 甚 麽

真 爱 过 才 会 懂

会 寂 寞 会 回 首

终 有 梦 终 有 你 在 心 中

朋 友 一 生 一 起 走

那 些 日 子 不 再 有

一 句 话 一 辈 子

一 生 情 一 杯 酒

朋 友 不 曾 孤 单 过

一 声 朋 友 你 会 懂

还 有 伤 还 有 痛

还 要 走 还 有 我

Those.

YOU KNOW THOSE THAT SAY ONE THING AND DO THE OTHER, YEAH. They're douchebags, that I will have to admit. 

It's final exam period, where everyone's true colours shine. Sometimes they are A and certain times they are B. They're so unpredictable to the extend that they could just either totally ignore you, or find you when they in need of something knowledgable. 

And this is the time when you witnessed and/or observed people with their darn good poker face. When one complains about studying or memorizing or writing to others but at the bareback one becomes a competitive and hardworking bookworm, nerd, geek, you name it, those in asians put, 'kiasu', which known as, lay man term, one that afraid to lose in anything and want to be the best of the best in everything, well, the best is sufficient enough to describe. An academic competitive person. No offense but this merely my opinion. 

They search for you when they're free or when they're bored or when they need someone to talk to, or need to be entertained. To be exact, this usually happened during the normal days, the exam-free days. But, when final exam is just around the corner or when it's ongoing, they just don't bother you, would not ring you nor look for you. They just think this is not the right time to be entertained and mainly focus on nothing but studies and examinations. 

They just want to be themselves. The lonesome study for exam time I called. 

Okay I get it, whatever!

These are the people that I couldn't stand watching, couldn't stand sitting/standing/talking/studying with, not at all. I feel uneasy and least of being myself. 

Frankly speaking at this time around, I tend to spend time to those that I feel much more comfortable spending time with. That I'm able to be myself without the uneasiness. Enough said. 

Thank you for sparing a moment. Done for the day. Cheers! >:)

Self is your shell.

Sometimes people can treat you nicely, properly, politely, friendly, and certain particular times otherwise. They be kind to you when they're not engaged to something and when they do they underestimate you and leave you behind, because for them, being egocentric is purely righteous. World these days are capricious, people these days are indescribable. And when I said indescribable, I mean it's not impossible for them to do whatever to you just to be pleased. Everything, for their sake of purposes. You could never fully bank on the world, nor the people on any damn thing, on any damn need, on any damn satisfaction. Not at all. Self is your shell.