how do you feel when you saw a girl , an unknown girl , holding the guy , which is your crush , shoulder & hand ? how do you feel ? this is related to my status. so yeah :( :'(
saw something terrible happened in college today. which really hurt my feelings a lot. guess i should give up. sighs. :/ i really didn't expect that to happen. i'm shocked the moment i saw that bloody incident :O is pretty hurtful to me :(
is like i'm having a nightmare :[
anyways. i've asked ayssya , my best & old friend of mine , this question (above). and yes. she did answer through facebook comments. ah well , of course , we talked a little , here's the convo peeps :
me asking ayssya ;
how do you feel when you saw a girl , an unknown girl , holding the guy , which is your crush , shoulder & hand ? how do you feel ? this is related to my status. so yeah :( :'(
Ayssya :
aw , honey D,: i know how you feel , sucks doesn't it ? feels mcm your heart sinked ? but we have no power to change things sometimes . if you dnt wnt this to hppn anymre , you kena buat smthing. have you ever told him abt how you ACTUALLY feel abt him ? :o
Me :
yeah exactly. my heart broke into zillion
pieces when i saw that happened. :( thats why. wish really could turn back the time. sighs. yes he knew about it :'( too bad huh ?
Ayssya :
Laaaaa , what an ass. If he knows but he's someone that cares about how you actually feel , he would have not parade infront of you with that girl . He doesn't care abt yr feelings at all xinlei . he isnt worth the pain.
Me :
yes. i totally agreed with you. i'll forget about him , totally. will never ever wanna know and see him . gonna take that both of are strangers. both of us don't know each other. i'm gonna take action one of these days. for what he had done to me. it really fucking pissed me off :@ :@ i'll get rid him from my life & most of all from my mind. i promise to myself i fucking won't remember him , at all. is not worth for everything.
Ayssya :
JYEAHHHHHH ! Now thats the xinlei i know ;) i'll always give you support okay ? whenever yre down , i'll be here fer you ♥ he's a jerk , and he doesnt deserve your tears.
Me :
yeaaaaaah. thanks a lot sya sya. ohmygosh. i seriously miss you. so badly :'( thank you so much for your care , love and support. you're really best & old friend of mineeee ♥ ♥ yes totally agree (:
Ayssya :
:') yre welcome sayang .
Me :
heheheheheheheheheheeheheh
ahha. after the convo. i've got my revenge spirit back. so yeah.
i'm gonna take action one of these days. i promise to myself i won't fcuking remember him , at all. is not worth for everything , especially the pain & tears that i've been through. ; thanks a bunch for my best & old friend of mine ; Ayssyaa Esa , for being there for me. thank you so much for your love , care & support towards me when i'm down :) i'm awesomely lucky to know you. iloveyouforever♥
anyway. back to the point. like what i've said earlier. i'm really gonna revenge , which i'll t.r.y or if not i'll just like that , be normal. take one step at a time. so yeah. i wonder :/
ah well , is better off for me to forget his appearance that it is store in my mind & those memories between me and him. pffftttt. is not worth for me , my pain , my tears , basically everything. so yeah. ayssya was right. is totally waste my precious time & efforts & not to mention energy , which i can do a lot of things that i interested with. so why not ? hahaha. okay then. i'll stopped here. will update more. lols ? see ya peeps around. take care. xoxo :)
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